Tuesday, December 31, 2013


Another day at the gym today. I really wish I had more motivation to actually want to go. Once I am there though, I feel really good. I was a beast at the treadmill today. I love that I can jog for (well it seems long to me) for over seven minutes because there was a time where I couldn't run for a whole minute without being winded. Which brings me to my next point. Sometimes I get envious of what I used to look like in high school. I wasn't super slim but I don't necessarily think I was big. I particularly get envious of my junior year because that was when I slimmed down. I had gone to a camp for six weeks over the summer and told myself that I was going to eat just my regular meal, eat fruit for dessert and skip the sugary snacks. I also walked everywhere as I didn't have a car (or my license for that matter) but it really worked out for me. I felt so good and not to mention for the first time (ever) I felt attractive because I actually was starting to take
care of myself. I am not sure how many pounds I lost. Honestly, I didn't have a goal in mind I just mainly wanted to look better.

The point to all this is that even with those simple steps, I was able to to lose weight and feel pretty good. You don't need a special diet to restrict you from every sweet thing imaginable you just to have motivation and portion control. Sadly, that all ended when I hit college BUT lets move on...

Another point I wanted to make that yes, I was somewhat thinner in high school but my senior year I was unhealthy. In just these last couple years I am probably the healthiest I have ever been just solely on the fact that I am more conscious (or trying to be) of what I put in my body. All I ate in high school was crap apart from my mom's home cooked meals and I really wish I would have thought to at least exercise.

So this is me when I was 17 or 18. I want to say I was about in the 140s, probably like 145. As you can see I still have a bum (I will never get rid of that, unfortunately HA) but I can see that my face was slimmer as well as my stomach area. Am I right on this? or am I just seeing things? I do think I look slimmer though. I want to get back down to that. In due time. I am giving myself until March. Actually, my coworker/friend Rashell both gave each other until March to lose 10 lbs. Now, in 2011 I lost 27 lbs in three months but its not a race, I want to be done my goal weight by March and KEEP. IT OFF. for good.

Well, I think i'm going to end this.
To all, Happy New Year
Hope this year is full of success and happiness :)

Monday, December 30, 2013

Day # 2

The temptation is real! Yesterday I went grocery shopping with Craig and it was tough because everything looked SO GOOD! (I also went to grocery shopping, hungry worst. mistake ever.) but I did not cave. I had chili and tangerines for my supper. It was a strange combo but it eased my cravings. I went to the gym also but the only setback I had was that I did not wake up early to do it. I had set my alarm for 8am but did not complete that goal as I woke up at 9 and didn't get my butt moving until around 11am. I still want that to be my goal because I still find myself lazing around and I HATE that but yet I still keep doing it. Today I almost ALMOST told myself not to go to the gym or rather, I went to the mechanics for 1pm and didn't get out until about 4ish? I told myself that I would go home and than go to the gym afterwards even though I already had my gym stuff with me. But than I talked myself out of it because I figured that once I got home than I would want to stay home so I went to the gym right after the mechanics and I am glad I did.

What I have realized also, is that I am only at the gym for one hour. ONE HOUR. There is no reason why I can't go. There are times where I am so motivated to go to the gym but the one time I make an excuse not to go the gym than I go on a hiatus because than I keep making excuses for myself. It is really frustrating to get to a point where I feel good inside and out but then I somehow give up, it happens without me realizing it until I get on the scale. Right now I am 159.6. The last time I had checked the scale which was not too long ago I was 155ish. I hate how its so easy to gain weight back but I love the challenge it gives me. I just hate losing the same weight over again. I somehow can't seem to get past 155. I don't know what it is. I seem to give up at 155 lbs. 'Tis strange but I will try TRY TRY TRY to finally get past that weight. UGH, I will be ecstatic.


I find that some people get so weird about someone who owns their own camera taking pictures of themselves. I don't get it. Its not a big deal. I honestly like taking pictures of myself (when I look decent) as well as I like taking pictures of other people (when they are not creeped out, its okay if you are) and nature (nature has no choice) so its not like I just take a gazillion pictures of myself BUT even if I do who cares...that is all.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

The Day Before

I kind of had different visions of what I wished the sky looked like tonight. I really wish the fog hadn't decided to block how pink the sky was. There will be other times where I will have the opportunity to take better pictures. This one is not my favorite but I decided to post anyway. I am wondering if I should start putting watermarks on my images-not that I care if anyone uses them but I just thought it would be a nice touch. I will have to think more about it-not that its really a big decision or anything.

Tomorrow starts the day of a better me! I start back at the gym tomorrow. I have a schedule set in my phone and everything. I want to get a head start to this resolution business. Speaking of resolutions, I plan to be more motivated with my time especially on my days off. I wake up early but than I find that I don't really accomplish anything throughout the day and I have realized it really bothers me. I want to start going to the gym early enough in the morning so that afterwards I feel like I can take on the day so I have set my alarm for 8am and plan on going to the gym for 9am. During my work days I usually get out at 2 so instead of going home right after where I literally want to do nothing I will take my gym clothes with me to work. I have so many ideas on way to be better for my health, body and mind but it's just the question of being able to execute it. I will try with the first day and take each day one step at a time-hopefully blogging regularly about my accomplishments and struggles. I want to be able to learn a thing or two about what I am writing so hopefully it will help me for the future.

Have a good night. Until tomorrow!

P.S I continue to write and post images on this blog for a good week or so to see how I feel in continuing with this and if I decide that I will definitely use this for inspiration that I will start telling people about it just so I am not the only eyes reading what I have already typed up. It would be nice to see other people being interested in what I have to say but I want to make sure I can keep up with this. I don't want to promise I will post on a regular basis if my heart isn't in it so consider this a trial version. I will take it one day at a time-so far this is kinda fun!

Friday, December 27, 2013

What is next??

I am feeling very inspired lately and I am loving this feeling! It makes me excited to start new things. First off, this blog. Ahh, I have had this blog for about two years and I did feel inspired at one point to even start this blog but that died quickly. It was originally supposed to be a kind of fashion/photo inspired blog but that quickly died. But recently I discovered a blog of someone I know of and she has inspired me (she doesn't know it) to start this up again-round two! Her blog is so...I want to say feisty or maybe to the point or maybe very real. Actually, all of the above. I love reading her entries which primarily have to do with body image/health and weight loss. Which brings me to my next topic of discussion. Which is: weight loss.

 I have been inspired by my friend from high school who has lost a bunch of weight by eating right and exercising. I want to do the same! I want to lose at least fifteen pounds to be at my goal weight. I get so motivated to go to the gym but the one time, the ONE time I make an excuse not to go, I never go again. When I do go to the gym I felt/feel so much better. The last excuse I made to not go to gym was because pandora took up too much data on my phone so I wasn't able to listen to music. Sure, it does suck but oh my garsh, Rachel, get over it. Not only do I want to lose fifteen pounds I want to maintain that I want to continue to go the gym and have that drive to be healthy and make better choices with what I put into my body. 

I also have a goal. My friend/coworker are working together to lose weight. We are planning on having weekly weigh ins and motivating each other to continue to do well. I think that is just what I need to get back on track. So! Sunday will be gym time for the first time in almost two months. I want to document my progress and document how I am feeling that day or what I struggle with just to give me that extra oompf.

With this blog as well, I don't really just want to just be typing away at the keyboard with every entry, I want to display my soft spot for picture taking-no, i'm not a photographer but I really, really am enjoying this hobby of mine and I feel posting pictures on this blog makes for better quality rather than posting on Face Book. I also want to somehow mail some of my photos to people by maybe asking them to pick a topic for me to photograph but that is for a future thought. 

So what exactly is this blog about?
Basically things that I am passionate about. As of right now I want it to be for weight loss and whatever pictures I decide to post. I don't really want to mark this blog to be a certain way. I just want to post whatever for now. I also don't want to put restrictions on my blog because I want to make sure I can keep up with this-time will only tell. 

Well, I have written all I can think of to write so I will end this entry for now.
(Wow, what a lousy way to say bye)


Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Ice Storm 2013

As dangerous as this or any ice storm is, it is quite beautiful to gaze at outside of my window. I nearly killed myself trying to take a few decent pictures before the ice melted off and i'm happy with how they came out. This picture kind of reminds me of either spider legs or the movie Frozen-polar opposites, I know. I actually didn't even notice until I edited the picture how there is a single leaf trapped in between some branches. I could continue this post with a metaphor but would rather not. It would come off silly but also pretty cheesy so I will just leave this post with one other thought. I really hate winter because winter brings cold, sickness and bitterness however, I often find myself wishing I had my camera while I drive down back roads because of how photogenic winter is. Like this evening for example. The sky was a bright pink and the clouds were dark mixed in with the dusting of snow made the evening photo worthy. I immediately felt regret that I left my camera at home but promised myself I will take my camera with me more often so I don't miss opportunities like I did tonight.